Statistics we will never be !! 

As I stare through the window of faith , I’m realizing the past you can’t change 

So I forgive everyone 

that has done anything wrong to me 

This was all meant to be 

But the devils plan will never succeed 

Because gods grace is upon me 

Loving every inch of me 

Transparency , vulnerability 

Thats what he wants from me 

Telling my truth 

Living obediently 

Who cares what you think 

Gods on my side 

Victory is mine

my heart is sincere 

I’m no longer worried 

About the ones that aren’t near 


didn’t show me the way 

Because of God 

and this journey 

Is the reason

 I’m in this awesome Place 

Misguided on purpose 

Purpose is now within 

Teaching my children  daily 

How to win 

God first 

Stay away from the streets 

Believe in yourself and reach for you dreams

Statistics we will never be… 
Original By 

Rachel Shundari Ullah 

This is me … 

Let me introduce myself  My name is ______

As you can see 

I have goals and dreams 

And wish some could see 

Deeper then my body 

I love long walks in the park 

Or to sit under a tree 

I love deep conversations

 I never liked


I’ll enjoy a drink or two

 so I’ll drink with you 

But in the morning 

we have things to do 

I love to hear the laughter

 of my family

And hate to see pain 

I dislike selfish ways and anyone 


lives in vain 

In my home 

God first 

Priorities a must 

Then all the things 

we want to do 

Need and want are two different 

So don’t expect everything 

But expect me to hold you 

Down and do my best to own my crown . And show you how a queen treats her king .

Like like cleaning , cooking you dinner 

And building you up 

Encouraging you to never give up 

Reassuring you , letting you know you’re the only one for me 

Praying for you when you can’t see 

Letting you be 

when you need breathe 

Loving your family like they were my own 

Holding your hand if you ever felt alone 

Reminding you there’s so much more to life 

Like smiling , laughing and loving life 

And when you get caught up with what’s next 

I’ll ease the pain in your chest 

By saying the words 

I believe in you and no matter what babe will make it through 

I’ll support your dreams as I continue to reach for mine 

I’ll never let another man take your shine just follow through with who you said you would be 

And I will never allow another man to get close to me … 
Original By Rachel Shundari Ullah 

I’ve always been she …

I Honorable woman I’ve always been but you were focused on your pain and didn’t care about mine , I told you my truth many times .
But I allowed your your mind and the way you thought to cloud my mind
Insecurities allowed me to follow your lead
Why did you add to my pain
Instead of help me heal
I don’t understand where I went wrongI built you up as I forgot about meI never told you how to feelI allowed you to feel the pain of your past as you disregarded mineNow you wonder why I’m saying good-byeBecause your lack of words and feelings didn’t set me free that bedroom I cried in was the only time I was able to cleanse my eyes …

Original by Rachel Shundari Ullah

In Jesus name I prayed ? 

“We may Have Enemies We may have Friends

 But the reality is 

 all are Teachers

In the end 


how not to live like thieves 

By focusing on the Shame 

Time to rise above 

and say his name


Is the name 

I’ll never let die in vain 


was the name 

that took away my pain 

When I was under attack

 and over whelmed 


allowed me to prevail 

Religion confused me 

But the words 

Satan I rebuke in Jesus name 

Renewed me 

When I was hurt 

When I was learning 

more about myself everyday 

I asked Jesus to lead the way 

Whether it was the holy bible 

that showed me the way 

Or my heart I followed 

when I felt like 

 Life was in my way 

Things never made sense 

but today they do 

That name Jesus 

speaks volumes 

To me 

what about you ??? 

Original By 

Rachel Shundari Ullah 

Some Things Are Not That Complicated !!! 

Why hate me If I don’t hate you 

We all go through 

The same struggles 

You just don’t 

have a clue 

Your focused 

on your kind 

Not thinking 

about others 

Not realizing 

we are all 

gods children 

Sisters and Brothers 

Race is so over rated 

And religion is too 

Things thrown in our face 

 That we individually 

go through 

Some don’t 

even know about the 


that are 

being celebrated  

A “holy day ”  

that should 

be a happy day 

But at times brings 

so much pain 

So I can understand

 some that care 

not to celebrate 

Everyday should 

be treated 


Thanksgiving Day 

 Or giving thanks

 on Easter Sunday 

Should happen every day

 And you don’t 

 need a space 

To celebrate gods face 

Just speak in the air 

or get on your knees 

Or run a nice shower

And talk he 

He will hear your words 

and lighten your heart 

Then hateful things 

or thoughts may 

no longer live in your heart 

Everyone has a reason 

they live 

there life a certain way 

But I don’t judge you

 or throw 

The things you do in your face 

If you ask me 

why I put up a Christmas tree 

I tell I you like to see my kids smile 

And if you ask me 

why I took it down so early 

I’ll say I needed my space 

I don’t know what all these holidays mean and I don’t know if Halloween is the devils dream 

but I know on that day 

I seen my kids be able to feel free . 

It’s up to us as parents when they are young to allow what we see . 

But Remember what some children  pretend to be 

may not be what it seems . 

The devil could be wearing the Angels wings and angel can have horns that you see . 

 At the end the day my point is this . Things aren’t always

 the way it  seems 

I still believe in God as crazy as it seems !!

Original By 

Rachel Shundari Ullah 

Can you hear me now 

Who are you ? Please tell me 

Do you see my face

Do I look pleased 

Im a testament 

of the strength god gave me 

With the pain 

that has been instilled in me 

My eyes see 

through your eyes 

So if your busy 


If what I’m saying 

are Lies

You will be in 

for a big surprise 

You will now see 

Everything I said 

 I wanted to be 

Is everything 

I’m striving to be 


 you can’t clown me 

my crown is on 

I told you how I felt 

and I wasn’t untruthful

But your vocal muscles

 you chose to use

beat me to a pulp 

And while I was choking 

You didn’t give me hope 

So how could you be mad 

Because I’m holding my ground

And not allowing anyone to bring me down

See God is the center of my life 

And he comes first 

So that means 

Before what you have 

who you know 

The strings you could pull 

The things you  

expect me to say 

Trust me 

I will not say

I can’t play 

this malicious game 

I Wonder how many Woman 

you treat the same 

I’ve knocking on these doors 


But no one is hearing me 

Time to kick them down 

Not physically , spiritually … 

Original by Rachel Shundari Ullah 

Color blind

Spanish speaking
Puerto Rican,
brown and proud,
Light hair
with blue eyes
I’ve been with all races
It didn’t matter
What anyone thought
As long as I was being treated
Like a lady
So I thought
Spanish, white, black
It didn’t make any difference
If I didn’t claim
The woman I was
Neither would any man
no matter his race
I heard people say “once you go white
you go right”
I beg to differ
Or “once you go black
you never go back ”
If only one could picture
Or “Spanish men
are the best “choice
If only you knew
No matter the race
I chose
They didn’t have
a clue
because I allowed myself
to be misunderstood
By not setting standards
And living their truth
Hoping they would teach
my children
and I something new
But they
didn’t know
how to follow through
Being a man
was the hardest
thing for them
to do.
Because what they
have been through
So before you think
it’s s race
that did you wrong .
Take the time and tell me was
was your heart
in the right place
or was your mind
thinking foolishly
Or were just
living cluelessly
Just thinking about
this seems
like a better way To live
Or maybe my kids need a man like this
Sometimes I wonder where I went wrong
But I’ll tell you race
had nothing to do with it at all …
I was manipulated
and done wrong by all .
So this time around
I will get to know me
and the things
that make me
feel complete
and Race
has no factor in how I see ….

Original By Rachel Shundari Ullah

No Longer Dancing With The Devil …

Laying in bed
alone again
Thanking God
because I know
this is only
not the end
Shared my truth
and all my flaws
Now it’s time for me
tell you why I chose
To dance with the devil
I wasn’t confident in me
So I guess I chose
exactly what I saw in me
Some one hurting
Someone who was
Uncomfortable with
negative energy
Someone whose
been burnt
by life and always
being taught a lesson
But to your surprise
Today I look
in mirror
and I finally see me
Looking at you
no longer does it for me
I remember
how you treated Me
and seen me
Like I was a weak
link mean while
I was the steel chain
that never faded
may have bent
but never broke .
Something like
That you chose not to see

How could I expect
you to see me
If you couldn’t
even see you
Not over things
that life put you through
But still I seen you
the way
I seen me
Someone that has been brought
to their knees
Someone who shared their
truth while doing her best
to righteously
pull through
Scared of what’s next
but still living life
Wondering if
God put the right people
in my life
or Am I being deceived
When I think
harder it really
doesn’t mean a thing
because the person
I chose for me
will be exactly
what’s inside of me ….
Original By
Rachel Shundari Ullah

Deeper Then The Gym … 

Back at it again  The weight heavier 

then before

I hope

 I don’t break a sweat 

Balancing life 

on my feet 

I’m pushing through 

Closing my eyes 

so you can’t 

see the truth 

I’m scared 

my legs 

will give in 

And tears 

will run down my face 

But all the pain 

I’m feeling 

Makes me want 

to push this weight 

I’m far from weak

Can you see my strength 

Holding in my stomach

I inhale my truth 

Breathing out slowly 


All things 

I subconsciously 

put myself through 

But I can’t stop now 

Do you see the change ? 

I do 

Finally beating the odds 

And I didn’t have to go to a doctor 

To see me through

This pain still hurts 

I can’t lie

But I’ll be damned 

if I go to a doctor 

to get me by 

I want to understand the pain 

Some say pain is weakness leaving the body 

I’m starting to believe 

this to be true  

Insecurities I’m 

finally Learning 

to control 

But I can’t over do it 

I have to gradually 

Pull through 

Im not trying 

try to show you

I’m better then anyone 

Or prove a point 

I’m pushing 

my own 


To see what I can do

I don’t want to stay the same

This change isn’t in vain 

You may not understand some of my complicated ways 

But I must stay focused 

So I don’t lose my way 

The day will come where 

you all will 


my pain and my words 

 I chose to say !!!

Original By Rachel Shundari Ullah