I see you Queen

I see you Queen
you have dreams
Even after
you seen
what should be
the unseen
I’m sorry society
let you down
And the women
you should be able
to look up to
don’t own their crowns
And some men that
are fathers walk around
Looking like clowns
Smoking L’s on the block
So You can’t help
but stare
People fiending
looking at you
Asking you for
what you can spare
Young Kings
not caring
about anything
but what they hear or see
Like Cars ,guns , drugs , Money , hoes
and anything that blings
Liquor store on the corner
A vicious cycle
of
Children failed
But I see you Queen
you’re prepared
Knowledge and wisdom
at this age
Only teaches you
how to do things a better way
This letter I wrote is for you
I’m passing on these jewels
because I’ve seen
what should have been the unseen too
Dear Queen ,
I see life in your eyes ,
You’re capable of being a leader
Don’t let the life
you live cheat you
Remember your worth
And life is a game
Chess , I call it
My pawn
Are the lames
You’re a winner ,
checkmate
Game over
No longer
Moving with frauds
You know the ones that act
Like they have it all together
No job , no educations
but every Jordan to
whether the weather
No goals set
But Queen
don’t fail to remember
You have choice
The lessons that
Will be taught
and the
consequences to
you may have to face
Think about it
It shouldn’t be hard
it’s life or death
staring you in your face ….

Original By Rachel Shundari Ullah

Fatherless Boy to a MAN

So many things
I never wanted you to face
Like the insecurity
that lied within me
Or the fear of failure
Not being able to see
It hurts to feel your pain
I pray to god he leads the way
I know you can be so many things
But I must remember
You’re just a fatherless child
trying to
Find your way
Nd learning how to become a man
in a cold world
People not caring about
You
You feel like
your left out the loop
Trying to do things
the right way
Slipped up a few times
but that’s just learning life the hard way
Stressed out
Looking at the rest
of the world
Like they have it all together
But there are levels to this
seasons change my son
always remember
Your time has come
and things will get better
Seeing clearer
Wanting more
Being a boss
is what’s on your mind
So you follow
then lead
wake up
and grind
With big plans
on your mind
I can see it now
All your dreams
coming true
The Words you speak
Are your truth
With Actions
to show and prove
Moving like
you have something to lose
Learning to communicate
without placing blAme
Priorities in order
You’re all about change
Thinking about
what’s next
Staying focused
Tired of being
second best
In your head
So level #1
is the Level You chose
Forgetting about everyone
that has forgotten about you ….

By Rachel Shundari Ullah

Visionary 

So let me ask you a question ? what do you see when you look at me ? Do you see a visionary or just a woman that visions your mind 

Clouding mine 

or do you vision 

The thoughts of your hands sliding in Btwn my thighs 

or do you envision walking side by side or completing ones sentences and seeing eye to eye . Or do you envision my lips in Btwn your thighs 

wondering how I ride 

or if I could show you a good time . 

Doesn’t even matter the time or place yours or mine . 

A park or bench 

imagine the things that run through my mind . That doesn’t mean your gonna see that part of me so quickly 

if you were to envision my vision you would see there’s levels to this so don’t act clueless waiting for a clue 

Like your playing a game 

. Like I. Need to be tamed  

. take the time and envision my vision 

you might see exactly 

what your missing 

A woman that has a vision 

and it’s not focused or your goals. her vision is to get through life with mean precision 

and reach submission 

while maintaining conditioned . Conditioned for war but ready for love . 

My vision is to never give up . Only if you can envision my vision without clouding yours from your past experience . 

So what’s your vision is it 20 /20 or are you blind to a real woman that has has a vision 

and doesn’t consist 

of living off your vision .

she moves like a boss

 and leads like horse 

prepared to open the minds of those that are lost .

 See I have vision but your too busy envisioning your vision .

 Clearly we are not same page

 so I’ll fall back and you can envision your vision with a woman that has no vision .

Original by Rachel Shundari Ullah 

Lets be women together

Woman in control,
control of what
how we can make a man trust
or how we can control his thoughts
or if he comes home on time
or how we can control his mind
Woman can control so many more than the things
that go on in a mans head .
I am in control of me
what you see is what you get
I can’t
Pretend to be who you want me to be
I am in control of my heart
and if you decide
you can’t be a part of the way think and how I see
You’re not for me
I am in control of my body
Yea ,I said it
my body belongs to me
So if I flaunt it
or hide it
that doesn’t mean
I want to be seen
or I’m scared to be seen
I’m comfortable being me
I’m in control of my spirit
so tainted ways and jaded thoughts
Can’t affect my ways
I am in control of me ,
can’t you see more
than all the things that your male anatomy sees .
If you can’t
I’m not for you
because I deserve
to be treated like you’re mother and daughters do
.Woman in control can be so many things but let me break down a little more of me
I’m a woman in control of me,
if you don’t understand me , please feel free to leave … What’s a woman without a mind of her own ,
a woman who can be cloned
a woman who can be owned a woman who settles for less than her best
a woman who is just like all the rest .
A woman who thinks
she’s too cute and her looks can get her through .
A woman who gives her body away , any man will do .
A woman who hates peace a woman who loves drama
a woman who will probably disrespect your mother .
A woman who doesn’t understand her ways and all the crazy things she may say . A woman who forgets all she is as long as she’s his.
a woman who looks like the rest , talks like the rest
and thinks like the rest
And sometimes even dresses like the rest ,
a woman who has no shame and plays games ,
a woman that lives in vain .
a woman that doesn’t hold her ground or own her crown as long as you promise to always be around .
I’m a woman with a mind of her own that can’t be cloned , that can’t be owned , that understands her truth and can’t settle for less than what she gives to you ..we can all be strong women , women oppressed mentally evolving nobly ….

Original By Rachel Shundari Ullah

I Never Needed You

How do you expect me to trust correctly
when betrayal is all I know
Abandoned since young
left to do things on my own
Having a child young
I needed help
Angry about my past
And hated what I’ve seen
Promised my myself
I would always be a woman that was clean
Scared of my truth and confused about love
How come no one can ever love me like the man up above
I put my best foot forward
and showed everyone my heart
Until they pushed me in a corner a tore my heart apart
I’m tired of loving so hard
I was always so true
you push me to the limit
and now I have no choice
but to forget about you too
You want to take my peace
and add to my pain
I don’t understand
your selfish
and jealous ways
So I hide my face
so you can’t see the hurt
I refuse to cry
You need help
I look in mirror
and I see what the monster
the world created
A woman that no longer
cares and refuses to cater
I was physically and emotionally a slave to your ways
Until you too raped me of my empathetic ways
Validation from another
takes the pain away
Temporarily ,I understand
this won’t last too long
But the way you have me feeling
is all the way wrong
I even cried to God
that we see better days
Now my eyes see clear
and I don’t like what I see
I see a person
that really doesn’t care
or appreciate me
A person that is threaten
by the things
that make me happy
A person that’s wants
No one else
witnessing this
Amazing side of me
You want me all to yourself
I can’t breathe ,
you’re suffocating me ,
while emotionally
making ass out of me
Aggressive with the way you speak
Nothing is never enough
Picking everything apart
Like I don’t know
how to survive myself
I told you I wasn’t with you
Because I needed help
and now you see
how I move
surviving
was never a issue
I never needed you .. I wanted you

Original by Rachel Shundari Ullah

It’s My Time To Shine ….

Spirit fades
when things
don’t change
Same face
You see in the mirror everyday
Until season change
Heart grows stronger
from the things he didn’t say
So being replaced
is the last thing on my mind
What am I chasing
A man
that doesn’t take the time
Or make a effort to
Make me want to stay
It hurts you remain the same
But the time
has come to say good bye
I can longer live your life
or feel your pain
I different woman
can’t you see
Focused on things
deeper than just me
You held me back
for so long
I was worried about your growth
forgetting about mine
The things I did
to allow you
to continue to shine
I’m tired of putting
you in first place
when I’m the prize
Finally you see …
The things you never let me be
Like a Honorable woman
With a vision deeper than fixing you
I’m prepared to face all my hurt and wounds
You must be frightened
I’m strong enough to push through
I told told you
I wasn’t the Devils food .
Everyday is different
and I’m learning
more about myself
So when I look in the mirror
I see a beautiful,
strong, forgiving,
loving woman that loves herself first for the first time
and refuses to cry!

Original By Rachel Shundari Ullah

Sorry I Can’t feed you my love

House is smelling like love
Not easily given away
You want a plate show me you’re worth the chase
The food I make is filled with my love , loyalty , respect
With a twist of things I will do to you if you were the man I was eventually coming home to .
See my love is no longer shared unless you give me a reason to stay
Meaning we first need to go on dates and see if you’re a man who deserves a plate
Trust me When you taste my food you will salivate
Loving every single taste
All the flavors will burst in your mouth
Leaving you speechless without a shadow of a doubt
But I can’t make you a plate if the only thing you’re bringing to my table is a dish and fork what about the long walk in the park or the long talks
What about going movies
Or sharing our dreams
What about waking up and seeing text that makes my heart skip a beat .
I’m not asking for much
So I’m sorry
I can’t feed you my love
if all you do is eat . Original by Rachel Shundari Ullah

Mother to son

Tears streaming
down my face
So many things
I never wanted you to face
Like the insecurity
that lied within me
Or the the fear of failure
Not being able to see
It hurts to feel your pain
I pray to god he leads the way
I know you can be so many things
Your just a young man
trying to
Find his way
in a cold world
People not caring about anything but drugs , money and girls .
You feel like
your left out the loop
Trying to do things
the right way
Stressed out
with nothing to show
Looking at the rest
of the world
Like they have it all together
But season change
always remember
Your time has come
and you will do better
Seeing clearer
Wanting more
Being a boss
is what’s on your mind
So you follow the lead
wake up and grind
With big plans
on your mind
I can see it now
All your dreams
coming true
Words you speak
Is your truth
With Actions
to show and prove
Moving like
you have something to lose
Learning to communicate without placing blAme
Priorities in order
Thinking about
what’s next
Staying focused
Tired of being
second best
In your head
level #1 is the Level You chose
Forgetting about everyone that has forgotten about you !!! Original by Rachel Shundari Ullah

Unconditionally loving me …

Memories trickling
down my face
pain weathered
feels like a knifes embrace
Lust feeling like love
Missing the words
That you use to say
You know the words like
good morning
have a good day
Or good afternoon luv
what are you up to
Or
have a good night baby
I can’t wait to see you
the minute you seen my eyes were only on you
You stop trying
You started Acting brand new
songs you sent me
Turned to lies
Lies followed by a disguise
Watching me cry
Lust leaving me to feel incomplete
Thoughts wandering
A bleeding heart
What is love I ask myself ?
Is love unconditional
What does that mean
Words without action
No in between
You breaking me down
Is that ok
Throwing my past
in my face
And I should stay
Unconditional
what does that mean
Does that mean you can you love you
before you love me
Unconditional
that word is so deep
So I should stay
when you play
those Devilish games
Unconditional
what a word to use
Unconditionally loving you
While you unconditionally abuse me
This word is crazy
How can I unconditionally
love you
if I don’t even love me
I think it’s time to use that word differently
and unconditionally love me and conditionally love you
Your not adding to my reflection in the mirror
You’re taking away
My eyes are blind
I can’t stay
unconditional
that word needs
to be understood
I wouldn’t have no problem loving you unconditionally
if you’re words were true ! Original By Rachel Shundari Ullah

my shame , your gain …

Expecting me to fail
Think again
Life challenges
I’m use to it
I will rise to occasion
Leaving mental and emotional
Abrasions
I told you not to push me in a corner
Or leave me without a choice
But to fight to survive
Surviving is what
I will do
Until my foot work
Speaks for itself
I won’t let your ways
stand in my way
Or make me feel hopeless
without life
Faith in God
Is what keeps
my feet from slipping
after all the strife
Taking me to a place
Where I’m no longer free
Emotionally Imprisoned
by you
never again
I will be
Chains locked
without a key
Bonded by the ways
And the place you
Mentally put me
Until I realized
hating you
I was still
hating me
So spiritually
I decided
to set myself free
By forgiving you
For the things you said
you would never do
Like saying words
That took away from me ,
To benefit you
Verbally trying
to destroy me
Emotionally abandoning me
Spiritually jading me
The only thing you didn’t do
Is physically lay hands on me
The scars that remain
from the words you say
Caused a lasting pain
Why do I feel bad
for the things I did to myself ?
Me Confiding in you
Was the tool you used
Against me
to make feel
Like a fool
Throwing the pain
I caused myself
Was the only words
you could use
you put me in such
a healthy place
placing a mirror to my face
Realizing it was
my poor choices
that added to my pain
That was day
I really changed !!! Original by Rachel Shundari Ullah