War or peace ?!?

It takes time to understand your ways
The things you should and shouldn’t say
The pain that’s relevant and worth the fight
The fight that’s worth giving your life
Who’s willing to stand up for what they believe in
Who’s willing to go for bat
Who’s willing to speak their truth
Who’s willing to be living proof
Are you willing to fight for change or are you ok with things staying the same
The same injustice
the same hate
the same things
being done in vain
The devil believes
in defeat
but on Godspeed
the footprints that will be left will be hard for worldly people to believe .
Remember no weapon
formed against us shall prosper
as long as you want to prosper for the right reason .
Freedom , peace and equality .
Everyone being treated the same understanding everyone’s pain .
It hurts to see people hating our skin or the neighborhood we live in .
But how do you think it feels to be discriminated for the people you love or the amount of food you eat .
Or just being a lady .
This is todays world
I understand but what are we fighting for peace or war .
I don’t even watch the news because what the mental war it puts me through
Call me crazy I call it claiming my peace of mind .
This time around when I shine be prepared because I’m coming for everyone In And out the streets . How the hell can we put a limit on who we want to feel free !!! Original by Rachel Shundari Ullah

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“So as I sit back and think , I thank god for bringing me to my knees
and holding a mirror to my face when I felt incomplete teaching me more about myself
As I’m learning to breathe .
I’m challenged daily , but today I can see ” original by Rachel Shundari Ullah

Unconditionally loving me …

Memories trickling
down my face
pain weathered
feels like a knifes embrace
Lust feeling like love
Missing the words
That you use to say
You know the words like
good morning
have a good day
Or good afternoon luv
what are you up to
Or
have a good night baby
I can’t wait to see you
the minute you seen my eyes were only on you
You stop trying
You started Acting brand new
songs you sent me
Turned to lies
Lies followed by a disguise
Watching me cry
Lust leaving me to feel incomplete
Thoughts wandering
A bleeding heart
What is love I ask myself ?
Is love unconditional
What does that mean
Words without action
No in between
You breaking me down
Is that ok
Throwing my past
in my face
And I should stay
Unconditional
what does that mean
Does that mean you can you love you
before you love me
Unconditional
that word is so deep
So I should stay
when you play
those Devilish games
Unconditional
what a word to use
Unconditionally loving you
While you unconditionally abuse me
This word is crazy
How can I unconditionally
love you
if I don’t even love me
I think it’s time to use that word differently
and unconditionally love me and conditionally love you
Your not adding to my reflection in the mirror
You’re taking away
My eyes are blind
I can’t stay
unconditional
that word needs
to be understood
I wouldn’t have no problem loving you unconditionally
if you’re words were true ! Original By Rachel Shundari Ullah

my shame , your gain …

Expecting me to fail
Think again
Life challenges
I’m use to it
I will rise to occasion
Leaving mental and emotional
Abrasions
I told you not to push me in a corner
Or leave me without a choice
But to fight to survive
Surviving is what
I will do
Until my foot work
Speaks for itself
I won’t let your ways
stand in my way
Or make me feel hopeless
without life
Faith in God
Is what keeps
my feet from slipping
after all the strife
Taking me to a place
Where I’m no longer free
Emotionally Imprisoned
by you
never again
I will be
Chains locked
without a key
Bonded by the ways
And the place you
Mentally put me
Until I realized
hating you
I was still
hating me
So spiritually
I decided
to set myself free
By forgiving you
For the things you said
you would never do
Like saying words
That took away from me ,
To benefit you
Verbally trying
to destroy me
Emotionally abandoning me
Spiritually jading me
The only thing you didn’t do
Is physically lay hands on me
The scars that remain
from the words you say
Caused a lasting pain
Why do I feel bad
for the things I did to myself ?
Me Confiding in you
Was the tool you used
Against me
to make feel
Like a fool
Throwing the pain
I caused myself
Was the only words
you could use
you put me in such
a healthy place
placing a mirror to my face
Realizing it was
my poor choices
that added to my pain
That was day
I really changed !!! Original by Rachel Shundari Ullah

Let’s give our youth hope !!!

Life experience
never stopped me
The block never
Loved me
The streets try to beat me
The devil couldn’t defeat me
My faith became stronger
as the days became shorter
Nights became longer
Where to turn ,
where to go
I see the world constantly putting on a show
Whose the truth
let time reveal it all
I hear your words
I pray
I see action too
My eyes are focused on the things that truly matter
Who cares
about lights
camera action
I want all kids
off the street
Finding peace
in all the things
they couldn’t see
Emotionally vulnerable
willing to learn
letting someone
who genuinely cares
Take a turn
Changing the mindset
of the hurt and confused
Showing a side they never believed was true
Someone loves and cares for them too ,
someone that’s not selfishly thinking
how To capitalize off the things they do Never really
taking the time
to understand their life
and the void
they feel deep
down inside
living a righteous life
Is furthest from their mind
That’s why they don’t focus on graduating
they get high
Vandalize.
Rob or sell drugs
It’s because parents , teachers police and people who live in all
communities are giving up ,
except for a few !!!
Original by Rachel Shundari Ullah

Stop killing the innocent !!!

The problem is the cops
that think they are
above the law
Some Cops hate the
the minority race
And hate runs through their veins
Some Cops
have been hurt
and abused from their youth
or bullied in school
So the control they get is something brand new
You put a gun In their hand
So above the law
is the religion they choose
Those kind of cops
are out to kill
Proving a point
when there’s nothing to prove
Physically venting
because all the shit
they been through
Some cops
will drink
till their blind
but no worries
let a fellow
officer sees this
and they will
make sure
there’s
Not a trace left behind
the colors they
show when they come is red , white and blue
But because of my experiences
They Put the same amount of fear in me as the racist , crips and bloods do .
The difference with them is
They’re legalized gang
treating all people the same
With disrespect and disregard for family and life
How is it
on your salary
your watch is shinning
so bright
Makes me wonder
if you’re living
a righteous life
Or are you living
the life
Taking from the thugs
that you beat in the street
Vouch what you need
to make your case complete
The rest is yours ,
you call the fruits of your labor
Knowing damn well
the city
didn’t give you that paper
it doesn’t matter
as long as you’re in control
Control of the people
you couldn’t do shit to
without your blue soul
Or badge
to claim your somebody
in the street
Today is the day
you’re faced
with the truth
And face to face
with a challenge
words that trigger
Your feelings
Emotions running high
you’re loosing
Your mind
You’re trembling
from the sight
this may be your time
Is it karma
that is staring you in your eyes
So you pull out your strength
and
pull the trigger multiple times
you could of shot them in the leg
but instead
you shoot them in their
chest or head
now they’re are fighting
for their life
All because you’re
trying to kill your demons
never realizing you didn’t even have a valid reason … Original By Rachel Shundari Ullah

A love like this ….

Back to the basic
but nothing simple
Reminded how life can take you for ride
You think you’re all good
Until your faced with all the lies
How do I start all over again
Pushing myself to a new level
Understanding my body is my temple
And I can’t give it away to anyone
Time to learn myself more than before
Like the things that make me feel free
Emotionally safe
Spiritually In Tuned
With the things I love to do
Loving my life today more than yesterday
Can’t allow anyone to take away from my reflection
I apologize if you feel the rejection
It’s nothing personal
my heart is bleeding for things I’ve been missing
I’m happy within
not scared to be alone
But never afraid to one day call a man my own
Secrets never told our
bond is so real
I’m not threatened by his movement his
Words never questioned because he shares his days and nights
I know some may get a glimpse of his eyes but I’m not scared cause I will make sure when we are together his eyes will be engulfed in mine
As I smile and speak of only the things that emotionally make him feel alive
Mentally stimulate him at the same time
Loving my mind and my actions that follow my words
A woman willing to give him the world
Counting me in
because I never
counted him out .
This love is we will share is real without a shadow of doubt
We will share our dreams and where we fall short
He will let me passionately get my point across
And I’ll allow him to respectfully tell me How He feels
even if it means
putting his foot down and letting me know the deal.
I’ll hear his words and not just listen to what he says
I will never allow another person stand in our way
I will never question the way he feels as long as he continues to love me the same
Keeping me sane when things don’t go my way
by comforting me but not pacifying my heart .
Understanding that sometimes distance can make relationship fall apart .
So whether he’s at work or spending his day being a man
I’ll understand as long
as he add me in some of his plans
and treat me like his lover and his best friend . This is the kind of love I believe will never end !!! Original by Rachel Shundari Ullah

Living my life

The things
that should have
broke me
built me
Being forgotten
Left confused
Learning that
no matter what I feel
I can’t let life slide by
Too many blessings In disguise
I rather ride the wave of life
Then just survive
I love the depth of the waters
where left with no other choice
but to swim
Shallow waters bore me
No more watching
life pass me by
I need to see
the Fruits of my labor
Witness them with my own eyes
See what I work for
not let one day
pass me by
Success will
always be a reason
I strive
but the riches
I get from my family
is a feeling I can’t describe
Loving all my blessing
even though I sit alone
Knowing one day
God will bless me
with someone to call my own
Little by little
I know he’s testing my heart
What is it I can live with
or what can I live without
Drama never being
a part of my life again
Jealousy or tears
that never end
Loving the ones
before me
Unity within my family
no longer feeling incomplete
Smiles that shine
Laughter that leaves
a sense of peace behind
Eyes that don’t lie
hearts that are now alive
Priceless times
Love you can’t deny
Glowing outside
Taking it all in
as time passes by
The peace I get
from absorbing
The moments I always lived for
Wondering what it would be like
if someone just told the truth !! Original by Rachel Shundari Ullah