time to go

Mysterious and unseen
So I wore all black
And hid all my sins
Because I hated who I was
You can’t see me in the light
Cause the dark is where I shine
You won’t see my marks
Or my tattoos
I hated the truth
And all I’ve been through
But why does so many still want to get through
And lay with a black soul
That was so cold
That didn’t understand love
But fought so hard to never give up
Why am gravitating to someone
Like you
Don’t I deserve something
I hate the way you laugh
When I hurt
And get mad when I tell
You the truth
This shit hurts too much
Get your fist out my face
I didn’t flirt with your friend
I just asked him if he wanted
A plate
Let’s move from here
I’m sure you will change
3 bedrooms a little more space
You mother loves me so does all
Your family
I just don’t get why you constantly have to put your hands on me
I know I’m not perfect but your passive and aggressive ways
Makes everyone think I’m crazy
And you’re the one who is sane
I can’t live like this no more I need to get away
Drinking at work only masks my pain
I hate my life why do I deserve this pain
Take what you think belongs to you
I hope you understand what you’re doing
I’m not fighting
I told you my body doesn’t belong to you
But you take it anyway
So you can release your pain
While I cry out loud
Let me out of this fckin house
But your hands are firmly around my neck telling me if I leave the consequence is death
That doesn’t stop the way I move so I go to sleep like I have nothing to prove
Sun rises you’re heading to wrk
I can’t do this anymore !!! This isn’t going to work !!! Original By Rachel Shundari Ullah ©

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Rachel Shundari ullah

I am a strong woman / mother that has been on my own since 14 years old without the proper guidance or structure. I am currently a volunteer for true2life . I have a purpose deeper then just me , I am the founder and president of my non profit organization named Its Beneath The Surface ( I am U ) . Our mission is to create a universal support system for our youth , teenagers , parents ,and adults of all ages that deal with everyday adversities .