my shame , your gain …

Expecting me to fail
Think again
Life challenges
I’m use to it
I will rise to occasion
Leaving mental and emotional
I told you not to push me in a corner
Or leave me without a choice
But to fight to survive
Surviving is what
I will do
Until my foot work
Speaks for itself
I won’t let your ways
stand in my way
Or make me feel hopeless
without life
Faith in God
Is what keeps
my feet from slipping
after all the strife
Taking me to a place
Where I’m no longer free
Emotionally Imprisoned
by you
never again
I will be
Chains locked
without a key
Bonded by the ways
And the place you
Mentally put me
Until I realized
hating you
I was still
hating me
So spiritually
I decided
to set myself free
By forgiving you
For the things you said
you would never do
Like saying words
That took away from me ,
To benefit you
Verbally trying
to destroy me
Emotionally abandoning me
Spiritually jading me
The only thing you didn’t do
Is physically lay hands on me
The scars that remain
from the words you say
Caused a lasting pain
Why do I feel bad
for the things I did to myself ?
Me Confiding in you
Was the tool you used
Against me
to make feel
Like a fool
Throwing the pain
I caused myself
Was the only words
you could use
you put me in such
a healthy place
placing a mirror to my face
Realizing it was
my poor choices
that added to my pain
That was day
I really changed !!! Original by Rachel Shundari Ullah

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Rachel Shundari ullah

I am a strong woman / mother that has been on my own since 14 years old without the proper guidance or structure. I am currently a volunteer for true2life . I have a purpose deeper then just me , I am the founder and president of my non profit organization named Its Beneath The Surface ( I am U ) . Our mission is to create a universal support system for our youth , teenagers , parents ,and adults of all ages that deal with everyday adversities .