Unconditionally loving me …

Memories trickling
down my face
pain weathered
feels like a knifes embrace
Lust feeling like love
Missing the words
That you use to say
You know the words like
good morning
have a good day
Or good afternoon luv
what are you up to
have a good night baby
I can’t wait to see you
the minute you seen my eyes were only on you
You stop trying
You started Acting brand new
songs you sent me
Turned to lies
Lies followed by a disguise
Watching me cry
Lust leaving me to feel incomplete
Thoughts wandering
A bleeding heart
What is love I ask myself ?
Is love unconditional
What does that mean
Words without action
No in between
You breaking me down
Is that ok
Throwing my past
in my face
And I should stay
what does that mean
Does that mean you can you love you
before you love me
that word is so deep
So I should stay
when you play
those Devilish games
what a word to use
Unconditionally loving you
While you unconditionally abuse me
This word is crazy
How can I unconditionally
love you
if I don’t even love me
I think it’s time to use that word differently
and unconditionally love me and conditionally love you
Your not adding to my reflection in the mirror
You’re taking away
My eyes are blind
I can’t stay
that word needs
to be understood
I wouldn’t have no problem loving you unconditionally
if you’re words were true ! Original By Rachel Shundari Ullah

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Rachel Shundari ullah

I am a strong woman / mother that has been on my own since 14 years old without the proper guidance or structure. I am currently a volunteer for true2life . I have a purpose deeper then just me , I am the founder and president of my non profit organization named Its Beneath The Surface ( I am U ) . Our mission is to create a universal support system for our youth , teenagers , parents ,and adults of all ages that deal with everyday adversities .