No Longer Dancing With The Devil …

Laying in bed
alone again
Thanking God
because I know
this is only
not the end
Shared my truth
and all my flaws
Now it’s time for me
tell you why I chose
To dance with the devil
I wasn’t confident in me
So I guess I chose
exactly what I saw in me
Some one hurting
Someone who was
Uncomfortable with
negative energy
Someone whose
been burnt
by life and always
being taught a lesson
But to your surprise
Today I look
in mirror
and I finally see me
Looking at you
no longer does it for me
I remember
how you treated Me
and seen me
Like I was a weak
link mean while
I was the steel chain
that never faded
may have bent
but never broke .
Something like
That you chose not to see

How could I expect
you to see me
If you couldn’t
even see you
Not over things
that life put you through
But still I seen you
the way
I seen me
Someone that has been brought
to their knees
Someone who shared their
truth while doing her best
to righteously
pull through
Scared of what’s next
but still living life
Wondering if
God put the right people
in my life
or Am I being deceived
When I think
harder it really
doesn’t mean a thing
because the person
I chose for me
will be exactly
what’s inside of me ….
Original By
Rachel Shundari Ullah

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Rachel Shundari ullah

I am a strong woman / mother that has been on my own since 14 years old without the proper guidance or structure. I am currently a volunteer for true2life . I have a purpose deeper then just me , I am the founder and president of my non profit organization named Its Beneath The Surface ( I am U ) . Our mission is to create a universal support system for our youth , teenagers , parents ,and adults of all ages that deal with everyday adversities .