Respect the season … 

 I’m mindful of my words always 

 . I hope you realize

 this is a love that will NEVER return after gone . 

You know I hold on to our connection  

, that’s why I never wanted to love you from afar 

Then I reflect and realize that those things no longer exists in you  

 my body I can’t share with a man 

that’s never there 

Your emotionally vacant 

This isn’t fair .

 I met you as Man 

that showed concern 

and love 

Someone willing to fight for me 

and put on his gloves 

A matter fact 

I think back 

So thoughtful  

you were 

We just met 

I think about the man that would say ” thinking about you ” no more no less . 

I’m thinking about the man I built with 

and worried about my well being .

 I’m thinking about the man 

I was willing to give my love 

every day or evening . 

I thinking about the man 

when 

Leaving wasn’t on my mind . 

Calculated movement 

Seeing if I snap 

See I’m a different type of woman 

I’ll never attack 

I know who I am 

And what I bring to the table 

I was only 

Showing you a woman 

that was willing and able . 

When things cross my mind 

And feelings enter my heart 

I base my response off of your words 

Not my emotion , it’s called trust 

But I’m tired of trusting your words 

When your actions don’t add up 

 I made all my efforts 

to introduce you 

to the type of woman 

I am and trust and believe

 I don’t switch up . 

You know me long enough

 to see I’m as real as it gets 

if you’re a god sent for reason 

Instead of lifetime this season I’ll respect . 

By Rachel Shundari Ullah 

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Rachel Shundari ullah

I am a strong woman / mother that has been on my own since 14 years old without the proper guidance or structure. I am currently a volunteer for true2life . I have a purpose deeper then just me , I am the founder and president of my non profit organization named Its Beneath The Surface ( I am U ) . Our mission is to create a universal support system for our youth , teenagers , parents ,and adults of all ages that deal with everyday adversities .