1 + 1 never equals 3 If shit don’t add up expect me to speak …You created the monster in me and expect me to not feel all the things you’ve shown me . You constantly lied , cheated and manipulated me by telling me what I wanted to hear , how do you expect me expect me to leave you alone and forget all you’ve done while you had your fun playing with my mind while taking you your time to handle your business and think I wasn’t going to call you out when I caught you slipping , all the promises you made , and you wonder why I be flipping . how do I go about my day peacefully when you took all you had to give . My spirit my smile all for fun not thinking about me and all I’ve done . I’ve sat back and wondered where I went wrong then I realized it had to do with me And men I choose for you to see . The ones that never took the time to show you right from wrong . The ones that words were never true The ones that taught you their pain … Like not acknowledging you or taking the time to teach you how to be a man , probably thought nothing’s different so I’ll continue slipping …as I continue to fight , the more angry you got I guess you thought how do you want me to be all that he’s not . And expect me to be a man I never seen . I was as lost So I choose all I knew and that was being abused …mentally taunted and spiritually tainted I wish life was as beautiful as the one I painted for the world to see but you knew the real me , fighting to survive, crying to be understood, hurting so bad , hiding the truth . But through all that I held on to you , I didn’t Give up I fought for what I believe and prayed to God that he lead me not into temptation and continue to deliver me from evil while I did best to build you up and broke you down knowing another man has let you down . This is not what I planned but I exactly what I needed to understand your ways and the things I never let you say . Original By Rachel Shundari Ullah ©
You were born in a rush
but that didn’t stop me from feeling the rush
of such a beautiful sight and how hard you had fight from the day you were born .
Your heart amazed me from the very start fighting to be heard and understood
when you know I was up to know good .
Even though my ways were not intentional
you knew I could do better so you voiced your opinion
so I could I get it together and unfortunately
I thought a man in my life would make me better .
So I choose wrong again for the second time and to no surprise
I was sold a bunch lies and manipulated to believe that we would in a better place
but then I realized he loved me over you and your brother
and I couldn’t live like that so I decided to move ,
with hope of finding happiness but never really loving me
so searching for something true was the hardest thing to do .
I realized the truth may have set me free but Imprisoned you
and now you believe that nothing good belongs to you .
But I’m here to tell you happiness is yours and no one or nothing can change that now .
I’m exactly who I’ve always been
but now my mind and heart is free and I can see .
And all I see is in exactly where I want to be
with my kids at home in peace
not regretting on thing that’s ever happened to me .
Resentment doesn’t live in my heart , the only thing that makes my heart sing
is my kids living free
not worrying about life and all the things I’ve seen ,
that’s my life not yours
so continue to soar
and become all that fought for
the glory goes to God but the effort was all yours !!! Original By Rachel Shundari Ullah ©