Lord hear my prayer !

Lord god take this pain away
lord god let the people see your face
lord god let them understand their truth
lord god let people believe they must have faith in you .
Lord god theirs so much to say
lord god please lead the way
lord god I wish I could set everyone free
lord god please continue to speak through me .
Lord god I hear children’s cries
lord god please let no stone be unturned lord god please show me what you want from me .
Lord god I’ll follow your lead
lord god I’ll walk the talk and speak my truth lord god
I’ll show people by example that they can do it to .
Lord god please take the pain away
lord god the devil is trying to make a place in the eyes of the world and the hearts of our soul .
Lord god please let everyone let go of the pain that hurts their heart lord god or the things they took to far
Lord god let them remember all you do lord god let me show them your love is true .
Lord god please restore your faith lord god I want people to Believe in your grace. Original By Rachel Shundari Ullah ©

Satan be gone !!!

If you wonder if I hurt and if I feel pain the question is yes but I refuse to die in vain .
. I do my best to fight harder than before and let go of all the things that I ever did .
I do best to accept all my sins
I do my best to never conform again
To life that has no life in the end
You see me and I’m always smiling
That’s a way to never remind myself once upon a time I was dying
Dying to be heard , understood and remembered
Dying to be loved , protected and respected
Dying to find something that was a part
Of who I was
They say karmas a bitch that something to remember
But always remember with God on my side I will never surrender
The thoughts of devil that make me feel like I should pay for all things I did .
I refuse to believe the Devils way of making me feel like life’s in my way .
I’ll change and never go back to being the same and you will remember my face as I continue to pray . Original By Rachel Shundari Ullah ©

I have a purpose …

Where did my peace go ,
I want it back
the energy I gave , I want it back , no longer can I save the day .
I want my peace back . I don’t have all the answers and I make mistakes .
I have faith in God in all that I do that’s my secret .
I need to be around positive things can’t you see that .
I’m tired of watching everyone sink ,
I need to get away and isolate myself from selfish ways and people who claim they know me so well .
I want my peace back .
Let me cry alone and get stronger than before .
You can’t stop my heart from beating but I have to stop myself from getting cheated from what I deserve
and I deserve to be heard and respected .
How you live your life is your choice
your pain is yours my pain is mine .
But I can’t sit back and be a product of your environment anymore .
This love inside of me doesn’t deserve to be ignored or taking for granted or forgotten or hurt .
I deserve to live I deserve to feel alive .
I don’t want to let one day pass me by.
I took advantage of life before
I can no longer do that anymore .
I want my peace back ,
I want to smell the food cooking in the kitchen
I want to see the smiles on my kids face
I want them to never again feel like they’ve been replaced .
If you don’t want to give me my peace
I’ll take it a run
so don’t push me in a corner after all I’ve done .
I told you before
how I did things
trust me this isn’t going to be fun .
So don’t call my bluff just trust my words and please let me go about my life and become a woman who tells her truth and teaches young girls, young boys , woman and men . What they go through, isn’t the end !!!! Original Rachel Shundari Ullah ©

The devil is a liar !!!

Have you ever sat back a listened to your phone ring for hours
with hopes that it would stop ringing because the shame you felt was so indescribable and you needed help ,
have you ever cried all night looking at your phone hoping it will ring because you needed help .
It’s funny how depression plays tricks on you .
You think the ones you love are for you and the ones that want to be around you are against you .
What I realized was the ones I wanted be around didn’t know the real me
so I was able to front like I had it all together
meanwhile I was falling apart .
The ones that new me , really knew me and seen the mess I was so I didn’t want that reality check so I pushed it away .
I didn’t want the truth to shine because after all this time you think I would have had my shit in line .
Depression is the devil in itself .
It takes your joy away and replenish your pain .
You can’t see the bigger because your mind is cluttered with the things that happened to you or what you did others .
So you can’t see beyond guilt so you overcompensate with hopes that the next person will see something in you that you truly don’t even see in yourself
or you choose to be around people who need exactly what you need help .
Someone you can relate to because you don’t want to face the mirror or change your ways
and it’s easier to stay the same .
What I realized was the hardest battle I fought was fighting myself looking in the mirror and changing everything that I had to change within myself
so I could be a better mother and woman .
I needed to stop looking for validation from the world
I needed to stop clinging on to the things that hurt me in the past
I had to see beyond the pain and fight harder than I ever fought .
I needed to stop making excuses and telling lies .
I had to finally face all my demons head on ….
I finally sleep through the night , I’m at peace . My demons no longer suffocate me or pull on me in my sleep my demons are dead cause I killed them the day I faced them !!! Original By Rachel Shundari Ullah ©

Continue to fight !!!

If your curious about the woman who stands before you im a Woman of truth a woman who knows her worth a woman who doesn’t hold her tongue a woman who’s not effected by much a woman who hates drugs a woman who will sip on her drink but don’t get it twisted this wasn’t always me … I use to be able to drink like a dude and sat bitter angry and confused about life and how I was treated I allowed myself to feel defeated . I did my best to change my ways and as time went on I learned to have faith I surrendered my heart to the unknown and decided to go with the flow of doing things right putting up a fight for what I believed , not caring what anyone thinks . Some disappeared some stayed but the truth is I’m ok . Once I realized life was unfair and no matter your struggles or signs of despair sometimes nobody will be there . That doesn’t excuse all they do it just means they are not for you so hold your head high as you continue you to fight and never give up , it’s going to be alright . let no one determine the smile in your life . Once you realize the biggest battle is fighting yourself and at end the day having faith in God is the only thing that can help …. Original By Warrior Princess

Love …

I can’t recite a scripture but I know who intervened . Faith in God is what saved me . . No matter if you lied or did me wrong I pray on no ones downfall . I want the world to win because we all have sinned doesn’t make it right , but I understand the fight . It’s ok to fall but try again or you’re going to relive a pain that will never end . Learn about yourself, don’t worry about others , keep close to your family like there’s no other , stay the course and don’t get discouraged because the world is living a different life then what you encourage …. Stay true to yourself don’t sacrifice your soul . If someone doesn’t get who you are let them go. Cry for a minute let your feelings flow realize the one who loves you would never hurt or abuse you or selfishly think , or sit back and watch you sink , they will do their best to keep you afloat and tell you things you need to know . They will never walk away and not think about you they will never sit back and question your truth . They would never get joy trying to figure you out they will never not hear you out . So regardless to how you feel know the difference in what is real . Love shouldn’t hurt , love should be fair both have to fight for you want . It can’t be one making the efforts or taking the time to make sure everything is alright . Love will make you shine , love will build you up , love will hold you down when no one else is around . Love will never try to take your spirit away love will only remind you of heavens face . Love will let you be as long as your true , love will make you realize the truth . Love will never forget who you are love will never take things to far . Love will reassure you , love would never ignore you . love will never hold you back ,love would make sure you stay on track, Love will take its time , love is something beautiful and divine , love is something that’s not easy to find . Original By Warrior Princess