What I’ve learned about myself is that I run from my problems nd i
hate confrontation either i flee from them or i allow my anger to
consume me with pride ..Id rather deal with forced consequences then
deal things head on because I still have no self control at 34
I have very little tolerance for negative people in my life i
guess For that reason ..yet I made a poor choice that resulted in
nothing but negative attention nd I choose to flee once confrontation
occurred nd when I felt my character is being challenged nd I am
provoked or antagonized pride takes over …I still have so much to
learn …..I still have so much to
learn …..please pray for me
Confused about life
confused about love
even confused about the man from up above
How can you value life when life never valued you .
learning to love was the hardest thing to do
coming from a place that wasn’t average along with being so passive
finding out all the things
never knowing my mother past or
why my father had to pass .
Hurting on all levels so I singe my skin
hoping someone will look a little harder deeper then all my sins .
Notice me please I just need to be seen
please mommy don’t forget about me ,
I’m just a little girl
trying to find her way
so you take me by my hand and now we are on our way
never did I expect to be replaced
one of the hardest things I had to face
.I became bitter sad but true
I hated you so much I didn’t know what do .
As time went on I realized we were so alike but different in hindsight .
Now that I have my kids and I clearly understand what it is you initially planned .
Unfortunately the drug took over your heart
and you and all your kids had to part .
I don’t blame for all you did you were deprived as a kid .
Deprived of love and peace in the heart
so many raped you from the very start .
So now I stand tall and understand your truth and all the things you wanted to do .
So my promise to you and my kids I will be victorious I promise I will win !!! Original By Rachel Shundari Ullah ©
You said it best ,
All is fair in love and war …
you’re the reason I still stand tall .
I watched you fight when I was a kid and never give in .
You taught me how to handle myself in the streets and never allowed me to accept defeat ,
as you handled yourself with class grace
regardless to all things you had to face .
Your strength amazed and so did your mind
it was only a matter of time
that I learn move the way you did .
You smiled when you hurt and laughed when you cried
so no matter what no one ever knew you were dying inside . You loved genuinely
even though you fought through the truth
and let no one know how all your demons had a hold of you .
But I can relate cause that’s fight I had to face
and I had to learn to survive no matter what was killing me inside .
But when I think back to when I was kid
I remember a mom that never gave in . I salute you and your heart and the fight fought even though our time was cut short . Just know your love was more than enough
to make me never want to give up !!! Original By Rachel Shundari Ullah ©
Driving without a destination
Running out of gas
Loosing all control
When will the pain pass
I’m tired of fighting
the devils in Btwn
Loosing my sense
Loosing my faith
I can’t breathe
Why won’t you stop me
I’m dying inside
The devil is chasing me
I can’t breathe
There’s no one to help me
As crazy as it seems
The devil is chasing me I can’t breathe
Stop for a minute and think about me
I never wanted to be this person
I can’t breathe
I’m loosing my air and crying out loud the devil is chasing me I can’t breathe
Lord please take this pain away I can’t breathe the devil is chasing until I realized it was me … Original by Rachel Shundari Ullah © / Earth Mecca
“What if doesn’t t exist , don’t beat yourself up because “what if “couldn’t prevent what’s meant to be so you can see the strength you embody and be able to face the things you couldn’t see “. Original By Rachel Shundari Ullah ©
Original By Warrior Princess